My wife and I were appointed to lead worship this morning at church, like we've done many times before. We drove to the church in a state of semi-slumber at 7:30 AM this morning. Melisa hoped that we'd have time to stop at real Starbucks for a pick-me-up, but we were supposed to have the building opened by 7:45, so that wasn't a possibility.
It's been a crazy weekend. Melisa's Mom is a dance instructor and performer, and suffered a fairly bad sprained hip on Friday night, and we were hanging out with her at the hospital until 3:30 AM on Friday nite, and had a very long and busy Saturday. This meant that Sunday morning, we were like zombies. Normally we do our vocal warm-ups on the way to the church, but neither of us had the energy (nor the required mood to make embarrassing hissing, buzzing, and humming sounds required by vocal exercises). So we cranked a CD and kind of sang a lot to try to wake up.
We flubbed our way through the rehearsal of the set of five songs, and went to prayer. I was feeling weak. I was struggling with the music, struggling with my guitar lines, and struggling to focus on God (the whole point). After we prayed with the pastors, we began the praise and worship set.
Our community came ready to sing and participate, and they jumped in right away as we started out with MercyMe's arrangment of "Angels We Have Heard On High". And there's just something about unity in Worship! All of a sudden all of the disjointedness that I had been feeling began to melt away.
Melisa went on to do the middle three songs, including a new song she wrote titled, "The Likeness Of You". It's a song on the same theme as "Change My Heart Oh God", and a very good song, I must say. I'm proud of the wife's effort on that one!
Anyway, I flubbed my way through the set, and at the end of the service a friend told me how great the set was this morning, and how he felt like the whole team was working together very well, and how much he enjoyed it.
It was nice to get some encouragement (I needed it this morning), but also humbling to remember that leading worship is more about staying out of God's way than it is playing the songs right and sounding good. In our weakness, God's strength really comes through. It's just another reminder that it really is all about Him, and a warning to those of use who lead worship to lead in confidence of Him, and not lean on our own abilities. And the more skilled you become as a musician and leader, the easier it is to forget that concept.
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